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In this debut novel set in 1990s Harlem, a young girl learns—and redefines—what it means to take up space. Eight-year-old Malaya Clondon weighs 168 pounds. It’s also true that she is Black, that her family recently moved from a tiny apartment on the Lower East Side to a brownstone uptown, and that she attends Galton Elementary Academy for the Gifted, but her weight seems to be the most important fact about her to most of the people around her. It’s what her classmates see. It’s what leads her mother, Nyela, to monitor Malaya’s food and take her to Weight Watchers meetings. And it’s what prompts her grandmother Ma-Mère to suggest that Malaya get gastric bypass surgery. Only a couple of close friends and Malaya’s father recognize that there is more to her than a number on a scale and unruly desires. By high school, she will have a larger circle of friends. She finds solace and joy in the rhymes of Biggie Smalls. And she discovers a new sense of style as she builds a wardrobe inspired by the rappers she sees on MTV. But she still hungers for experiences that she believes are reserved for thin girls—a hunger that becomes more complex when her best friend, Shaniece, becomes a thin girl herself. In an effort to meet this need, Malaya will acquiesce to sexual experiences that bring her no pleasure, just a hint of what it feels like to be wanted, before she begins to explore what it truly is that she, herself, wants. Sullivan writes with tenderness and uses the language of poetry to communicate her protagonist’s inner life. In difficult moments, Malaya escapes into fantasy, and she uses drawing and painting as emotional outlets. But what begins as dissociation evolves into a more confident relationship with her art, just as Malaya will ultimately learn to inhabit her body with a sense of license and possibility. She decides to let go of the shame Ma-Mère passed on to Nyela, and Nyela passed on to Malaya, and not measure herself in terms of fatness and thinness but in terms of “the smallness of a body against a broad scape of mountains” and “the smallness of life in the big, busy world.” A lyrical and important coming-of-age novel. Copyright © Kirkus Reviews, used with permission.